Thanksgiving

     Happy Thanksgiving to anyone taking time to read this. I really hope it is happy. Usually I'm pretty excited around the holidays, I love being with my family and seeing everyone. Lately that hasn't been the case. There is just so much drama and so much fighting it bums me out and I don't really want to be around it.
     I'm a real peace loving soul, I enjoy harmony. When things are good and everyone is getting along I am on cloud 9! I love to keep the peace and hate conflict! I value honesty and loyalty and strive to live by those principles, (if you want someone to tell you your crappy hair cut is good, I am not the one to ask!) I hate telling lies and try to always be honest, and I can't stand a liar!
     All of that is why this year I am really down. I have a very large family, getting us together means you need a big house with lots of parking! But everyone is fighting and angry, creating drama and spreading rumors about each other. It breaks my heart. I miss when we were all happy together, we've always teased and picked on each, and to outsiders it sometimes seemed cruel, but there was always love in it.
     This year Thanksgiving just isn't the same. And it's been like this for a couple years now. Every year it just gets harder to make myself want to spend time with the people I love. All the tension makes me sick. At least there's the Macy's parade...