Today’s Miracle Monday post is a little different than
the post that I have shared so far, because what I am sharing is not a breakthrough
in someone’s life. This post is a man struggling, struggling financially and feeling
frustrated because he hasn’t had the breakthrough that he has hoped for, prayed
for, and believed was coming by his obedience to his calling. The reason I felt
moved to share this is because we all feel like this man does sometimes, we all
have had these types of feelings although they might not be over the same issues.
I wanted to share this because despite feeling frustrated he is continuing on and
has written MANY post after this one. I found hope and comfort in his words and
the knowledge that he hasn’t given up. I pray that you may be blessed as well.
Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait
for the LORD.
Psalm 79:5
How long, LORD? Will you be angry forever? How long
will your jealousy burn like fire?
This one's personal,
by Ed Schneider
I cried out to
my God, and I asked him why? What is it that you want from me, what is it that
I must do that I haven't, and why will you not release the financial blessing?
It is you who is orchestrating it, because it is far too complex a plan for it
to be anyone else. You didn't have to do it yourself even, because you allowed
free will to have its way. Just a tweak here or a nudge there, and the people
involved go about doing exactly what they were supposed to do. So you did
nothing directly, you just allowed it to happen. I know, my thoughts are not
your thoughts and all, but I wish you would go about reversing things, and end
my financial woes!
Pardon the
interruption, though you probably sensed no change at all. But this part is
many hours from the first part. The beginning is from the morning, where this
part is being written tonight, while my Youtube post plays in the background. I
really put it up, just to drown out the noise and the distractions. But I think
that for now, that prayer is better left unfinished. So anyway, I am finally
going to do something just for me, for me, and me alone! I think that I deserve
a break, even though so many others disagree. But I'm still not where I want to
be yet, and I hope that another shoe doesn't drop. Road block after road block
was placed in my way, but I have made it this far, and come hell or high water,
I am going to see this through! It's such a small thing really, having nothing
to do with my bigger problems. But it has become important to me, as at least
this once, I want to have my plans work out, something has got to go my way?
The larger things? I've given up trying to break free of this electronic box,
so that I can go about earning a living. Ultimately, it is God who decides
whether or not I prosper, and up to this point, he has decided that I should
not. But hope springs eternal! I have asked others to help me and give me a
hand up, but for whatever their reasons, they decided not to. But again, though
they may well have made that decision to not help, they could do nothing to me
that God does not allow, so in reality, it is him I should be pissed at? But as
you might imagine, getting mad at God, never works out too well! Apparently, He
has decided, to use the situations and the people involved, to test me to the
breaking point! Sort of like a 21st century Job? But unlike Job, I have no
livestock to kill, and thank God, all of my children are alive and well! For
me, he has blessed me with a talent, and he made me a writer. And even though I
have always done all that I knew how to do, to communicate what it is that he
would have me say, still, he holds back the financial blessing? But as
frustrating as that is, the thing that frustrates me the most, is the fact that
no one ever comments on what it is that I write?
I have no way
of really knowing, how many people read my stuff. But I do know that there is a
lot of it to read. With all of the articles, posts, short stories, paragraphs
and comments that I have written over the years, you would think that someone
would have broken through whatever filters they have on me, and commented on
something? Can you see how frustrating something like that would be?
Frustrated,
confused, lonely and broke! Whata ya think, do you think I'm due for a break?
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